A few weeks ago, I chose to spend some time sitting still and enjoying God’s presence--not reading, not singing, not praying, only being. It’s not easy for a type-A person like me to depart from my “To Do List” and just “do nothing.” Our time together is so sweet and most always leaves me feeling refreshed and recharged. This time was no different. In my mind’s eye I saw Jesus walking on the beach with me. I saw only our backs. Every so often, I would stop and write in the sand why I was unworthy—unworthy of His love, unworthy of His attention, and unworthy to be in such a close relationship with Him. Jesus didn’t stop to wait for me as I wrote, He just kept slowly walking. As soon as I’d finish writing or sometimes before I even finished, a wave would come and wash away my excuses. I ran ahead catching up to Jesus so I could walk beside him and hold His hands. Several times I stopped to write but each time His response was the same and the waves erased my list of faults. When I finally gave up writing and focused on walking with him, He turned to face me looking into my eyes with a smiling face of radiance and eyes of love.
Even as I’m writing this, I realize that He is teaching me what it means to be a daughter. A daddy (a healthy and whole one) loves to hold his daughter’s hand and spend time with her. A daddy already knows many of his daughter’s weaknesses, but his love for her keeps him from always focusing on the negative and breaking her spirit. Certainly part of his job is bringing correction, but He patiently waits for the right time and then he gently guides. Their relationship is more important than correcting her faults.
Thank You, God, that you desire a relationship with me more than you desire perfection. Thank You for seeing beyond my faults, especially when I keep reminding You about them. Thank You for accepting me and loving me just the way I am and for patiently guiding my path and forming my character. I know that the more time we spend together, the more I become like You.